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Thursday, May 3, 2012
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3rd May 2012 ( Thursday ) at 11:53PM
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Just a temporary getaway ,
i seek nothing but happiness right now ,
and apparently it's her to decide whether i can be happy ,
for my happiness is actually with her ,
it's gone when she left my side ,
but still ,
i miss her and all ,
I know it's been quite some time since i've updated this blog ,
but it's alright ,
i'll try to update this blog along with my other blog now ,
time after time that is .
Babymoustachey.blogspot.com
You're welcome here anyways ,
and a goodnight to you people .
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Disrepute : Shrouded Within The Abyss . ♥
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Monday, September 19, 2011
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19th September 2011 ( Monday ) At 2:20 AM
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Well ,
just for starters ,
it's been ages since i last blogged ,
and this is well ,
a very awkward thing for me to say ,
but apparently me and my beloved baby ,
Ng Wen Xin ,
had broken up as off today .
19th September 2011 ,
2:10AM .
oh well ,
i'm sorry baby for actually giving you so much trouble ,
granting you so much hurt and stuffs ,
i really hope you'll find someone better perhaps ?
but then again ,
i'm selfish ,
i don't wish for you to find another person ,
rather you be single ,
so that i know you'll be taken care of by your friends ,
i'm no longer capable in granting you love ,
no longer able to grant you whatever you need ,
whatever you seek and desire ,
i'm sorry about everything .
sorry that i hurt you so deeply ,
i'm just so sorry ,
but then again ,
Even if i said a million sorry ,
even if i cry till my tear glands went dry ,
even if i cut till i got no more blood to squeeze out ,
you'll never be back anymore ,
well ,
it's the only thing i could say to you now ,
i'm sorry ,
baby .
兴利 ♥ 文欣
09-06-10 ------ 19-09-11
Parents Of Miyuki and Miracle
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Disrepute : Those Flashing Memories . ♥
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Monday, May 2, 2011
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2nd May 2011 ( Monday )
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Hah ,
Guess I've succeeded ,
Let go ,
i never deserved to be with you anymore ,
good luck with your life ,
and i wish the best for you ,
I'll be gone ,
Byes . (:
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Disrepute : Gone , For Good . ♥
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Saturday, April 23, 2011
♥
The Only Memory Of You And Me
That I Carry Around With Me
To Actually Make Me Feel That
You're Actually By My Side
♥
_________________________________________________________23th April 2011 ( Saturday )
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Well ,
as all of you know ,
i'm Single ,
My life's in a great mess and turmoil ,
i dread about the future now ,
and whenever i look back into the past ,
the pictures that we've taken together ,
those chat logs ,
i really missed them ,
you're ignoring me now ,
there's bound to be a purpose ,
but be it good or bad ,
i don't wish to know but ,
i just want the best for you ,
Over the past 10 months ,
we've indeed changed a lot as a couple ,
think about it ,
beginning we're so sweet with one another ,
so loving ,
everything seemed to be fine ,
the most lovable couple there is ,
but now ,
it's all gone ,
we're just one step to be back at square one ,
whereby we're both ,
Strangers .
Please don't leave me ,
i don't wish for you to ,
i'm typing this at 2:05am ,
hoping that you'll get a chance to even stumble upon this ,
but well ,
you'll probably be hating me when you get to see this ,
i don't know but well ,
Things would be better for you i suppose ,
without me by your side no longer ,
there's bound to be another guy that's better than me ,
that treats you better ,
that treasure you ,
that put you as his priority .
I know i've been hurting you ever since God knows when ,
but i don't mean it ,
everything that i'm saying doesn't mean a thing now i suppose ,
after all ,
What's done is already done ,
it can no longer be undone ,
I doubt i'll make it through the mid-year examination ,
which is next week ,
i've yet to study ,
feeling so hopeless over you ,
feeling so terrible ,
filled with misery ,
but well ,
it doesn't matter i suppose ,
when you get to see this ,
you would've moved on ,
you would've lost everything you once had towards me ,
And i ,
would be missing your presence ,
your every actions and memories ,
I hate to say this ,
but my life's hell without you ,
i never really realized it ,
but as times go by ,
we seem to have neglected one another ,
oh wait ,
it's just me ,
i seemed to have not noticed ,
what's the actual reason why we're together ,
never really cherished you ,
that's a fact ,
until you're gone ,
that's when i realized that ,
All these fucking times ,
i've yet treasured you ,
it's a little too late huh ?
How stupid of me to realize it only when you're gone ,
but well ,
nothing can be done right now ,
nothing can be undone either ,
We're gone ,
10 months ,
though it's short to me ,
but the length of the relationship doesn't matter ,
what matters .....
is the process of the relationship ,
and i hope you would still carry those memories you have of me ,
with you till this day and age ,
hoping that when you'll reminiscent about me over certain stuffs ,
hoping that you'll still put me as someone that has once changed you ,
someone that has once made you happy ,
granted you with everything you wanted ,
and i hereby wish you ,
for a better future ,
you'll find someone better ,
that i'm certain of ,
because you deserve someone much better than the this pathetic ass ,
oh well ,
enough said .
I'm Gone .
兴利 ♥ 文欣 09-06-10
Parents Of Miyuki and Miracle .
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Disrepute : Remnants Filled With Our Past . ♥
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Sunday, March 13, 2011
My awesome sister ,
that is always there for me no matter what ,
Next Chill ftw . ♥
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11th March 2011 ( Friday )
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Ah ,
Cross country today ,
and well i didn't participate in the run because i was so busy cheering ,
than i kinda like ,
forgotten about the race ,
how awesome ,
oh well ,
there wasn't any cheering competition due to the fucking rain ,
that totally ruined it ,
c'mon it's the last year for me ,
can't you at least let me lead Mitchell house to victory ,
oh well ,
went to some nearby blocks and smoke than after that ,
than cabbed back home ,
rested at home and stuff like that than never really did anything ,
went to find sister to ask her help me buy drinks ,
than well in the end ended up never buy ,
than traveled all the way to East Coast Park ,
meet my classmates there for the class BBQ ,
oh well i reached there first faster than the rest and stuff ,
than i just waited at my bicycle stall yea ,
not long later they reached and i just brought them to the shop ,
rented out bicycles and started cycling to Changi ,
but well ,
some obstacles happened in between that made me need to travel back ,
oh well ~
was stuck at the BBQ pit with Joey ,
Huiting and Wanyong ,
than Kaijie came not long later ,
than we tried starting the fire ,
blahblahblah ,
some time later the fire started and i called our beloved teacher Mr Joseph Lim ,
to come down and enjoy the food and stuff ,
everything was going perfect ! :D
rain didn't come and shit ,
and we took many many photos and enjoyed a lot for the BBQ ,
manage to eat till quite full man !
HAHAHAHA :D
after that ton with a few of my classmates . (:
Day 275 . ♥
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12th March 2011 ( Saturday )
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Went to Kallang Shopping Centre to play pool ,
play play play halfway honeh came over ,
than i went with honeh to rounding ,
blah blah blah ,
than i went back to my classmates who are @ ECP ,
than slacked with them ,
halfway need to go home and stuff ,
reached home only at 5 AM ++
baby waited for me ,
i'm sorry . ;/
- Afternoon -
woke up and well ,
never really did anything ,
just continued sleeping till it's like 6pm ,
than went to my grandma's for dinner ,
dinner liao than went back home ,
nothing much uh ,
Time to sleep ! :D
Day 276 . ♥
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Words Of Wisdom
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Well i can't say that i don't love you anymore ,
or my love have decreased over the months ,
but well i just have to concentrate on my studies ,
i know sometimes when i said i would study ,
i end up going out with my friends ,
but well i don't do that everytime ,
baby ,
please understand that i'm actually very jealous of you flirting with guys ,
i'm like ,
very pissed off with you actually ,
but i told you to do everything you want to anger me before my birthday ,
so i can't blame you or anything like that ,
i really love you a lot ,
i wish don't wish to lose you ,
but well judging by our current circumstance ,
we're about to lose one another soon ,
i don't wish for that to happen baby ,
I'm fully aware that you are messaging sweet stuffs to other boys ,
giving them heartshapes and stuffs like that ,
but i have faith in you ,
seriously i felt like slapping you at times for actually doing stuffs ,
that i don't really want you to do .
but well ,
all you wanted from me was just my attention which i never gave ,
i'm utterly sorry about that ,
hais ,
That's all that i can say to you my love ,
Believing in my words depends on you ,
i'll never let go of you despite the fact i keep say we'll end ,
i really want you to stay with me .
I Love You . ♥
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Disrepute : Changes Between Us That Cause Us To Drift . ♥
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Wednesday, March 9, 2011
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Happy 9th Monthsary to you my baby !
♥
__________________________________________________________It came about as an mistake ,
we added me by mistake ,
thinking that i'm the expected person you're suppose to add friends with ,
but well this already started our oncoming relationship ,
added you on MSN and chat with you every single day without fail ,
and before i knew it i actually fell for you ,
which is kinda ridiculous for me because it's like ,
i've never met you before and i don't know you at all ,
but you're in the same school as my friends ,
i asked my friends about you and your character back then ,
time after time ,
but well I still remember our first meeting ,
pretty fucked up if i were to say ,
but well it's still naise !
FATTYMON NG ! :D
Hahahaha ,
well 1 month after knowing one another ,
we've been together ever since and now ,
we've already walked this path together for 9 long months ,
don't you think it's worthwhile being with me ?
despite me letting you shed tears for me and everything ,
I still love you and i hope you do !
9 months of conflict and love ,
it's really a shame if we ever let go of this relationship ,
if we were to go our separate ways one day baby ,
please remember you had this awesome boyfriend ,
this not-so-romantic boyfriend that doesn't plan our outings !
HAHAHAHA ,
Love you oh baby ! :D
Day 273 . ♥
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Disrepute : A Love By Mistake . ♥
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Monday, March 7, 2011
Find this kinda nice ,
Don't know about other people's views on it !
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3rd March 2011 ( Thursday )
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Well ,
went out to find honeh at night yea . (:
Went over to Tampines to find her @ Koi .
than after that we went about talking about stuffs while waiting for his brother ,
after shaowei reached ,
took one huge round and fetched Jerrold ,
after that we went over to Sengkang ,
technically just slacked there until we went over to a coffeeshop ,
get my stomach some food and stuff ,
and well after that ,
took the car to another around in Sengkang ,
which had a basketball court ,
and well waited for the arrival of Kenji and Damien ,
and so they both came ,
than we played Basketball altogether !
yea kinda stupid but well ,
it's cool yea !
after the basketball game we went over to Pasir Ris to fetch Shawn ,
and than it was a long fucking cold expressway for me . ):
reached home and immediately went to sleep yea ,
nothing much really ,
day ends ,
Next day begins ! (:
Day 267 . ♥
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4th March 2011 ( Friday )
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Awesome ,
ended school at 1pm and just went home immediately ,
well upon reaching home i technically just slept through my day ,
until around 8pm plus yea ,
than went over to 108 Basketball court to find Gary ,
well slacked a while and stuff ,
than we ate together ,
after that i slacked a while with Jun xian bro and Quan yin sis ,
than i went home to entertain Gary and mong xi ,
than after that we played psp together until around 6am !
than we had our morning breakfast at the nearby market ,
after that i went home and sleep yea ,
for 4 hours .
Day 268 . ♥
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5th March 2011 ( Saturday )
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3 hours later and i'm awake ,
11 AM ,
fuck and baby came over to find me ,
immediately went over to Macpherson MRT station to fetch her over ,
than well she's at my house ,
we technically just slept together on my bed until around 1pm ,
than baby and me was hungry and we went to buy lunch ,
i bought for my sister and mom too . (:
see how good of a son i am ?
HAHAHA ! :D
oh well ,
after eating lunch ,
it started raining so heavily all of a sudden ,
and we're trapped at home , ):
only left house at 5pm ,
left for Chinese Garden ,
and we took some photos there and quite a few on the MRT ,
and well i've learnt somethings from baby ,
love her so much oh ! <3
hehehe :D
well after leaving baby i went over to Bugis and meet up with Kenneth ,
and the crew of my MT team *W.G*
Ah ,
than we had dinner at big bird ,
met some new members and stuff yea ,
than after that we went and played a bit of arcade here and there ,
managed to play one of the map with the team match of us with -WMR- ,
well after that i left them and met Dickson at Aljunied MRT ,
went to Sakura @ Lorong 27 and yea ,
waited for the arrival of Matthew and honeh ,
so yea ,
after that we're drinking @ Sakura ,
till around Tower was finished ,
and well we ate mee siam downstairs and slacked a bit here and there ,
and i went home via car ,
reached home at 4am .
and yea ,
Day 269 . ♥
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6th March 2011 ( Sunday )
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Stayed at home all day !
cooked Mee pok at home and ate while watching One Piece ,
it's awesome ! :D
and well ,
slacked with Quanyin sis a while and after that went home ,
before i knew it ,
sis had some problems and i went over to find her ,
and comfort her a bit here and there ,
than after that went to collect my Charger from Jun Xian bro ,
after that went home and started studying on maths ,
in the end i still don't understand . ):
well i did quarreled with my girlfriend today and feel so fucked up ,
but well ,
we're fine now yea ,
hah ,
I fucking love our relationship . (:
Day 270 . ♥
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Memories @ Chinese Garden ! :D
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Disrepute : I'll Never Ever Give Up On You . ♥
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