41st Post now , hmm .
Let's just say , i'm really a hypocrite.
but , reason being why i said all these ,
is because i don't know how to face you anymore .
you said let bygones be bygones .
i can't . there's still this tiny little voice .
inside of me , saying...
" You Don't Even Have The Face To Face Her "
" Just Let Her Be Who She Wants To Be "
" You're Not A Good Person "
" No One Wants You , At all... "

these are JUST some sentences that kept ,
popping out in my mind . why , i don't know either .
maybe it's fate that i'm suppose to go through all these.

i'm not trying to get anyone's sympathy cause
i don't think i'm even worthy enough to get
sympathised . It's Pathetic huh ?

Some Hypocrite boy . trying to change the world
into a better world . what big dreams he has .
what an idiot ...

And yet i saw you today , i looked away and
pretended that i never saw you because
i really have no face to even look at you
anymore .

It's Not My Style To Let Go Something So Easily .
you should know barh . i'm far too useless
anyways . i dragged you down in some kind of matters .
i made you hard to even lift your head high
when you're with me ,

That just proves how useless i am . what to do .
i'm born useless , you can't change that fact ,
i can't too . lala .

You may think that i'm just trying to be your friend
when i don't want to , you're totally wrong .
whatever i do , i always somehow drag you down .
i'm fated , to go all the way down with those
that are close to me .

YES i admit i'm a hypocrite ,
but you're wrong about being friends with you .

heh . Let bygones be bygones huh .
why can't i just say that to myself .
just let me life end , let bygones be bygones .
isn't that better ? :D for both you and me .

"WHAT A GAN DI ARE YOU MAN."

Yea . this is the answer .
I'm A Useless Gan Di That Doesn't
Care About Her Jie's Feelings and

1.Only Knows How To Get Along With
Friends And ___ Other Than You .

2.Only Knows How To SAY But Don't
Know How To Do It , A Coward .

3.Only Knows How To Care About
HIMSELF But Not Someone Else's Feelings.

4.Only Knows How To Ruin The Moods
Of Other People.

5.Only Knows How To Do Foolish Things

6.Only Cares About ______

It's My Fault I Know ,
And I Will Do Those Followings That
I Mentioned In The Earlier Post .
So Don't Need Care About Me Le .
For ,

I'm Lost .

So Now , Last Sentence,
_____ , if you're seeing this ,
PLEASE . just fuck off .
it's not because of jie i'm doing this .
it's because i've ruined two important
things on 25-04-09 .
Don't even come close to me .
because i will ignore you .

THAN HOR . THE OTHERS THAT WANT TO FIND LINI .
GROW UP PLEASE . OLD TAI JI MAI PANG SUA .
THAN COME FIND ME . FIND HER GUM LAN ?
BUAY SONG JUST LAI . DON'T KNOW HOW TO FORGET AH ?
PEOPLE DO MAKE MISTAKES . YOU GUYS DON'T GIVE THEM
CHANCE REDEEM AH ? MAI AH BENG AND AH LIAN WITH ME .
I DON'T GIVE A SHIT MAN . WANT FIND ME JUST COME
GEYLANG METHODIST SECONDARY SCHOOL GATE OUTSIDE WAIT .
i'm ready to face death already. Just Lai Nia.
To Hell With ALl Those Bastards That Is Finding Her.
And To Hell With Everyone I Know .
A BIG FUCK YOU TO YOU GUYS . _!_

Fucking Dicks . Never Think Carefully Before You Talk .
signing out . HL .

"The Main Reason To The Conflicts Between Friends
Is Jealousy" . how correct this sentence can prove huh.
hais . i don't mean to ignore you totally ,
but at first . as we got down the bus ,
i couldn't even find you .
but who cares now , you wouldn't listen .
so .
the Next Following Sentences .
will show you what i'll be in the rest of my life . ;D

To All . that know me , related to me in any way .
This is one request . or should i say , Order.
I'm Breaking The Bonds Between Everyone Of You .
so yea . don't bother sms-ing .
because i will not reply , depending on my mood .
i'll just treat you all like strangers .
;D good condition ?

so , fuck off guys , before i start doing something
stupid other than this . ;D

*Notes* I'm Doing This To Prevent Anymore Friendship
Problems . This Is How I Solve It , What Can
Anyone Of You Do ? Nothing . ;D

Signing Off . 2.00 A.M . 26 - 04 - 09
Knowing That I'll Be Facing This World Alone ,
I'm Ready . ;D
Saying All These , Doesn't Mean Anything
Without Doing Them , Heh . Prepare To Be Alone Huh ,
HengLee ah HengLee . why lead such a difficult life .
you're such an idiot . don't know what to say to you lerhs .
Goodbye . Old Life, Hello , Loneliness ;D

Before i start this post .
Please Assume 1 Minute of silence .

For My Future Suppose To Be Cousin .
Whom on The Attempt Of Giving Birth ,
Died . 22nd April 2009 .

Though i've not met you face to face yet .
i hope you'll Rest In Peace .

let's just give him ... 1 minute of silence.





okay . and so , i'll tell you what happened now .
Today , my aunt was suppose to be happy as she
was going to give birth to her first baby ever after
4 years of happy marriage with my uncle .
But . the sad thing is ,
Before the process of giving birth can even start ,
Doctors had already check that ,

The Baby's Dead ...

All Hopes went down ...
My hope to see this young kid grow old .
my hope to see his looks .

let's say . it's all pre-destined barh.
Aunt , Don't give up , There's still chance .
Never give up . Or Feel down .
For your baby , will be up there , smiling at us ,
along with our grandfather .

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Okay . 2nd part of the post .
YES I CAN PLAY MAPLE LE .
lol . that's all .
ANYWAYS . JIAYIOUS GUYS IN NAFA ;p .
and the oncoming exams . =.= '''

Aquila .
DeAtHsEeEker - FINALLY lvl 132 Bishop . lol
LickYourNeh - Lvl 43 Fighter .
xBaKaChilli - lvl 16 Pirate .

Signing Out . with a Lonely Mindset .

quiz by ben
THAN flo mei so bo liao make me do this quiz also . =,=

1)If you were not named(ur name)Henglee wat would it be?
*Er . I want Thunder as my name ! :D

2)Name 10 of ur favourite songs.
*Secret Valentine - We The Kings
*Kiss Me - New Found Glory
*Love Story - Taylor Swift
*Thunder - Boys Like Girls
*Pens And Needles - Hawthorne Heights
*Give It Up - The Friday Night Boys
*Miracle - Paramore
*Woah Oh!( Me Vs. Everyone ) - Forever The Sickest Kids
*Rooftops - Lost Prophets
*Damn Regret - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

3)What would you do in the future?
* Find My Purpose In Life

4)What would you do if you had a gay friend?
* Nothing Really . o.o

5)What would you do if someone offered you an international superstar ticket?
* I Don't Really Like Singles . o.o

6)Name 10 of ur fave movie or cartoon.
*Death Note - Anime / Movie
*Naruto - Anime
*Son Of The Mask
*Push
*Twilight
*The Curious Case Of Benjamin Buttons
*Too Fast Too Furious ?
*Spider-Man 1 , 2 , 3 ?
*Yes Man
*Lucky Star - Anime

7)wat's ur fave date?y?
*03/09/07 , The Day WE started.

8)What kind of breed would u like 4 a dog?
* I Don't Really Want A Pet . o.o

9)If u were given a chance to learn a third language wat would it b?
*Japanese ;D

10)wat would be the wish u want to fulfill the most?
*To Change The World Into A World Of Happines

11)Wat would u do if ur enemy is alone with you?
* Sort Things Out Once And For All .

12)If ur parents were to go overseas wat would u do at home?
* Play Computer / Hang Out With Friends Overnight

13)if someone wanted to spon u 2 go overseas where would it b?
*Japan

14)If you r given d choice to choose ur hair colour wat would it b?
* Blonde . ;D

15)If ur person u like confess his/her feelings 4 u, wat would u do?
* Accept her immediately ;D

Sadly , i'm not going to continue this quiz .
because i don't want people to feel what i feel .
it's troublesome. =,= but yet quite interesting .
but yet , still no logic to these questions . lol

Dear all maplers .
my fucking father , he blocked maple
from the internet to prevent me to play.
wtf man . i'm sorry guys ,
will not be active these few days .
because i'm going to go against his orders .
he's gonna suffer for treating me like a dog .
anyhow shouting at me , i also want my freedom.
he teach me what , you play computer so long
now you sick , isn't it your fault ?
i just shouted back this sentence ,
saying that it's my fault that i got sick ,
you care so much for what ?
he just said, i'm so disappointed in you .
my son actually said these kind of words to me .
fuck you man , you kept wanting me to tell you
what am i thinking , i just merely let you
know what i was thinking yesterday night
when you lectured me , _!_ you DAD .

I'm gonna go against your orders until
you're fed up enough to bring me to boys home .
This is what you're gonna get .
and i'll make sure the blow is a hard one .

Just this few words.

I'm Gonna Give You Hell

And i Mean it This Time .

hais . so you think that i'm happy with life as it is huh .
i guess you're wrong bah .
Without you , it's just lonesome days .
you got your FRIENDS to pei you during recess .
while me ? i don't have any , i just wander around.
see who i can hang out , just hang out ,
you know that i don't like hanging out with other people
but rather people hanging out with me right ?
hais . what i want to say is .
Without you , it's Just a Torture .
i can't seem to make myself happy anymore ?
everything seem to have changed within 1 night .
why ? . why do i feel so miserable ?

So Depressed .
Yet So Demoralised .
Lost Everything ,
To Find Myself In The Middle Of Nowhere .
What To Do ? That's My Fate I Guess .
My Destiny To Lose You Someday .
Those Memories .
I'll Never Forget Them
For I'm Going To Treasure Them .
And Now ,
Life Still Have To Go On Like It Is .
I Will Promise You That I Would Study Hard.
Provided You Would Too .

Like I Said . I Hope You Remember This .
It's Not Over , Until I Said So .

and for this . i leave a tribute for you .
for this everlasting memory you had given me .
i'm sorry for those mistakes i've done to you .
though it's impossible to say a sorry right now ,
i'm terribly sorry for those wrong doings .
may you prosper in life , with someone you truly love.
And i formally announce , This Relationship .
Broken . for now .

There's this light i saw . which reminds me of our time
together . i love you , and i wish that you can be
with me in my next life . Like we were before .

Romance , Love , Tragic Endings , they all seem to have
that link huh .
Heh . it's all over for me in this life already huh ?
Two Timed you , Made you disapointed time after time ,
made so many people hate you , but in the end ,
it's still the same few words . I'm Sorry .

Last But Not Least ,
Teachers , stop fucking applying stress to me .
i've had enough of your homeworks and file chasing shit .
mind you just stfu and making my life harder ?
quarrel with parents just over what ? your stupid files ?
that important ? O levels they need files ?
i don't give a shit man i tell you , at most ,
quit school nia , big fuck ?

It's already the end of all these liaos .
relationship , parents , school ,
everything , sucks .
CAN YOU ALL JUST FUCK OFF MY LIFE ?
ALL THOSE "FRIENDS" AND THOSE CLOSE TO ME
SERIOUSLY . JUST FUCK OFF .
I WISH TO BE ALONE .
ALONE FOREVER .
UNTIL I DIE .
NO ONE TO TALK TO , NO ONE TO PLAY WITH ,
I'M JUST THAT LONESOME KID YOU GUYS KNOW .
CAN YOU ALL JUST FUCK OFF ?
I'M REALLY PISSED AND I'M REALLY TIRED.

Everyone , please , go away from me ,
i don't want to hear anything more you guys anymore .
and i'm talking to everyone that i know .

i'm ending my post here . it's over i guess . haha .
Beginning of my lonesome life ,
Ending of my happy life .

Eeeee. first time do quiz . zz FLO MEI SABO ME DE T_T

1.Beside your lips, where is the place you link to be kissed?
My Forehead ? o.O

2.How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
More sleep please . T_T

3.Who was the last person you take picture with?
uhh . Kimberly jie <3

4.Would you considered to be spoiled?
yes . ;/

5.Would you ever donate blood?
Never .

6.Do you have a good friend of your oppsite sex?
Yes. :D

7.Do you wan someone dead?
Yea . as a matter of fact , i want a lot of them dead . ;/

8.Wad are you thinking of right now?
Why some people so immature . O.O

9.Do you wish someone was beside you noe?
What is this sentence trying to ask me ? =,=

10.When did you go to sleep last night?
2am . o.o

11.where did you put your shirt you wearing right now??
I'm bare-body o.o.

12.is there someone on ur mind now?
Hais , no

okay . =,= i don't wish to pass this on . rofl .
anyways , there's these few people i've met these 2 days.
they're like so fucking immature can ? . =,=
one is what calling people low class and high class .
no such thing de lor . =,=

another one is act sotong there . weird name somemore .

What i can conclude is that , The Secondary 1 and 2 batches
from all schools , VERY Guai lan and Xia Lan , .
That's my view , ;D . alrights . GTG lerhs .

G> DeAtHsEeEker lvl 131 . lol . finally . f3

I Want More Heart To Heart Talks .

hais. it's my fault that i two timed her.
it's my fault that i made her suffer...
i actually don't want a patch...
Just to end your suffering.
i shouldn't have sent you that message..
i shouldn't have give you a false hope...
i shouldn't have made you love me so deeply...
i shouldn't have... made you so sad...
but now , i guess i've no choice but to spend
the rest of my days with you huh...
i hope . you would be happy from now onwards...
I'm Sorry....

Hais . just to tell you guys .
Me and Lini has broken up .
and i'm serious this time .
i don't think we're able to patch anymore .
don't bother asking me what happened
because i won't explain to you.
let's just say . i 2 timed her okay ?
Just go on and assume whatever you like
about what happened to me and her .
we're OVER .
i just don't want to hurt her anymore .
Leave Me Alone .

I'm Always . Alone. ;D
Stay Happy . With Your Friends .
While i . Rot to my Coffin .
Finding the End to the road of my life.
Seeking death .
I'm so stupid huh .
giving up on a 1 year and 7 months relationship.
let's say that i'm just dumb .
haha . it's down the drain .

Remember those times we had ? .
It's all shattered .
Through friends we quarrel .
and through them we broke up.
It's always me whom did the wrong things
And i just wanted your forgiveness .
But this time ,
I will not make you forgive me .
So Don't Bother to even TRY .
I've just started my Destiny.
The Destiny to be alone .
Just Let me be .

And to all my friends ,
i know you're caring enough to help
but , no thanks . i don't want them .
i want to her . to continue life without me.
because i'm dragging her down .
it's all about me ;D

Understand now guys ? :D
signing out. 9.35pm .
The New Beginning.

Hmm . post this barh .
This picture , i made when i was VERY SAD i think
if not is, i really nothing to do . lol . hmmm .
HOPE you guys enjoy . BECAUSE IT'S PURELY I MADE DE T_T



Nice ? :D

okay barh . i end my post today . hmm . muacks ;p
LickYourNeh . LV. 37 Fighter . :D

okay la . here's my FIRST thing i want to say .

Happy 19 MONTHS / 1 Year 7 Months Anniversary
TO MY BELOVED LINI :D

okay la. second thing , i lazy to blog now,
maybe BECAUSE . i'm playing Grand Theft Auto 4 on PC.
IF NOT , is i mapling . LOL .

Maple ign : DeAtHsEeEker
World : Aquila
Level : 130.
Job : Bishop

okay hmmm . got another character la but than lazy train it

Maple Ign : LickYourNeh
World : Aquila
Level : 31
Job : Fighter

hmmm .lol. okay , let's continue with what happened
these few days barh .
Firstly . on 1st April ,
i WENT to Woodlands and Admiraity .
i went to Admiraity to Meet up with Flo mei and
Hong Min di . Hong Min di gave me the GTA 4 PC game :D
HAHA MAN . LOVE IT .
okay . than ya. lol. i went Woodlands after that
to buy my things. but in the end , i didn't buy a
single thing at all . LOL . sad seh .
Than went home Maple . Sam , Yang and Xiang MEGA ME !

LuRbeStOry a.k.a Yang mega-ed this :
Happy Birthday To Deathseeeker the virgin killer ;x

Samuelx3Red a.k.a Samuel Mega-ed this :
Happy 15th bday to Deathseeeker , Thr longer le , Don't Childish le

zxXsaSinnxZ a.k.a Xiang mega-ed this :
Happy 15th Birthday to Deathseeeker , Please Grow Up

but anyways . LOVE YOU GUYS :D . LOL. thanks all :D

2nd April ,
nothing happened really .
Was sick in class so went home early
about 10.20am i left school.
Went to see the doctor at 7.30pm .
BUT . I WAITED THERE UNTIL 9.25pm UNTIL IT WAS
MY TURN . f5. HATE IT SIA .
reached home at around 10.05pm.

3rd April ,
That's today . :D 19 Months Anniversary with Li Ni
also known as everislove in maple . haha .
she's beside me right now uh . sleeping .
so cute :D . haha . okay barh . i today ,
going to Orchard . Maybe WATCH movie or do
something else. SIAN . okay . hmmmm
That's all barh . ENJOY GUYS .
i'll TRY TO ASAP post some PICTURES . lol .

To Every Maplers : JIAYIOUS GUYS IN CHIONGING LEVELS.
To Friends : Thanks all those whom wished me
Happy Birthday . :D
To Others : Hmmm . Good luck in your studies :D
To Li Ni : Always forever , Loves you .