<body><script type="text/javascript"> function setAttributeOnload(object, attribute, val) { if(window.addEventListener) { window.addEventListener('load', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }, false); } else { window.attachEvent('onload', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }); } } </script> <div id="navbar-iframe-container"></div> <script type="text/javascript" src="https://apis.google.com/js/platform.js"></script> <script type="text/javascript"> gapi.load("gapi.iframes:gapi.iframes.style.bubble", function() { if (gapi.iframes && gapi.iframes.getContext) { gapi.iframes.getContext().openChild({ url: 'https://www.blogger.com/navbar.g?targetBlogID\x3d3737971553283528634\x26blogName\x3dDisrepute+:D\x26publishMode\x3dPUBLISH_MODE_BLOGSPOT\x26navbarType\x3dBLUE\x26layoutType\x3dCLASSIC\x26searchRoot\x3dhttps://mydesire-disrepute.blogspot.com/search\x26blogLocale\x3den\x26v\x3d2\x26homepageUrl\x3dhttp://mydesire-disrepute.blogspot.com/\x26vt\x3d2080525619174746448', where: document.getElementById("navbar-iframe-container"), id: "navbar-iframe" }); } }); </script>
Remnants Of Reminiscent

@ Mydesire-Disrepute.bs.com

Monday, August 31, 2009

Yawns . kinda tired . back from school because we had
Teacher's day celebration . so yea . hmmm .

will be meeting honey and siyu mei mei later at hougang
mall . whereas now leh . SIAN LAR . D: 11.14am now . ;/

and YES , my audition character , x3CHEWY finally become
a clubber . yay . ;x 3 weeks old only . BAHHH (:
will be updating with what happening later . (:

catch up yea? (:
__________________________________________________________

Disrepute : I'm Lost , In The Forest Of Confusion .




Saturday, August 29, 2009

Laughs , here to blog about what happened yesterday ,
cause thursday , it's just Chiong home and audi for
me only . rofl . so here goes. (:
__________________________________________________________

28th August 2009 : Friday
__________________________________________________________

okay . so school is boring as usual . flung the A-MATHS
test with 0 marks totally because i don't even know how to do.
okay . so screw the school for that first . uh... When school
ended , I cabbed with Joleen because she lives near me , cause
today we need bring EVERYTHING from under our tables , home .
GEEZ . so heavy . okay so i walked home after sending mei home ,
than uh . played a little Audi here and there ,

Honey and daddy came my house ! (: hahahaha . honey dressed until
so pretty sia . (: okay . so daddy and me played audi together
while honey slept on my bed . lasted until 6pm+ . so uh . we went
to Douby Ghaut after that , i don't know why neither , it just came
up my mind so yea . uhhh . Reached there and saw this two coupon ,
quarrelling right , talking face to face , VERY CLOSE TOGETHER SIA .

than right . okay . we just walked away . went Plaza Sing walk walk
a bit , can't find a seat at the Kopitiam , so uh . went to Parklane
to eat instead , (: okay . hmmm . at the food court there le right ,
daddy bought Fish slices Soup or something , whereas me and honey
right , bought desserts . lol . ;x than right , we find it weird to
just eat desserts for dinner , so we went to buy something hot .
geez . bought ourselves mini wok . OMG sia . it's confirmed that we'll
get a upset stomach as we're eating something hot and cold at the
same time . Gahh . after eating finish , ended up talking about some
Adult stuff with daddy and honey , and i think i know more ;x HAHAHA .
than right , we walked to Bugis than walk walk walk , went Bugis Street
see see things here and there than went Junction walked about . ;x
After that , went to iluma's Arcade , bahhh . Daddy wanted to catch
some toys, tell him can't liao . eat money de . than he try ,
failed here and there . than uh we went to play the Drum game . BAHHH .
so fun but than i lost to daddy . T-T

so uhhhhh . went to bus stop after that . do some stunts here and there .
BAHHHHH . waited for honey to get on her bus . (: than me and daddy took
our bus home . (: haha . had a fun day . If it hadn't for you people ,
i would have dropped dead long ago . heh . (:
__________________________________________________________

I suppose , everyday for me is just history
being replayed time after time again . Being trapped in the past and all
just hurts a lot . There's no solution to these problems i'm going through
that's so sad . Hais . i guess i really still missed you huh . Your memories
still lingers everywhere in my mind . Happy Past Yet Ironic Present .
The day is coming . Next Thursday . heh . the day i used to looked forward to
sad . i wonder what shall i do on that day huh . I Suppose I'm Alone This Time.

Twinnie , what happened.... where are you..... i missed you... I'm sorry...
i had been a disappointment to you recently , hais . i can't really get rid
of my past , sad huh , sorry....

Mixed Feelings I'm Having.... Confused And Sad .

__________________________________________________________

Pictures Time . (:
__________________________________________________________



Elmo and Cookie Monster Playing Chess (:



The Heavens.



Dark Figure . scary. ;x



OH , i'm siting on something . o.o



Kenghao and me . (:



Tada .
__________________________________________________________

Disrepute : History Shall Repeats Itself .




Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Okay . I shall post about a bit of yesterday and today.
__________________________________________________________

25th August 2009 , Tuesday
__________________________________________________________

School as usual , but hor today , Maths remedial totally
slipped out of my mind . GOSH . i pon without knowing . ._.

than . Jer jio me to khatib find thunder , so yea . (:
gathered at AMK around 4.45pm . than went to buy some
things with jer's friend Jason , which is my newly made
friend . (: hahaha . than we made our way to Khatib by
bus and talked about things here and there .

Reached there around 5+ and sat at this coffee shop and
wait for Thunder , than uh . yea . thunder came to us ,
and we went to a nearby Multi story carpark and slacked
at the 2nd floor. and uh... talked here and there once
again . (: than thunder need to go for a haircut .
so uh... jason and jer and me stayed on and talked for
a few hours . than went to eat . (: me and jer bought
this $2.50 char siew rice which is OMG nice to eat .

than uh... went back up to 2nd floor carpark there
and slack . talked a bit more , than thunder's friend
joined us . don't really know the name . i only heard
them calling him ray . so yea . i walked to the MRT station
at 10.20pm . than took MRT back home lo . reached home ,
helped Teddy with her HE work until 2am like that . GEEZ .

That's all , i suppose . (:
__________________________________________________________

Disrepute : I Hate This Feeling ...




Monday, August 24, 2009

Heyyyy . I'm back to blogging ! (: Ahhhh .
Okay . so this is what i'm going to post about .
Saturday , Sunday and Monday which is today of course . hmmm.
SO I'll begin here . (:
__________________________________________________________

21 August 2009 , Saturday
__________________________________________________________

Bahhhh . today woke up early , around 10 if i never remember
wrongly . okay . so i waited for Ryan for his BB thing to be
over , than it's around hmm... 2.30 when he finished .
i asked to meet at Aljunied MRT at 3pm but cmi at that time ,
so i cabbed down there . OMG la . $4.20 gone D: . okay . so
we took the mrt to Tampines and followed by taking Bus 29
to Changi Village to meet up with our old classmate , Jeslyn.

Okay . so we reached there , we bought ourselves a 50cents
1.5 litre of Mineral Water . WTF . okay... hmmm so Jeslyn
came and fetched us there . (: When we reached there , was
kinda awkward . ._. her friends not even friendly one leh .
okay la . not meant to say anything bad about them . >,<
okay. hmmm . stayed and talked a bit . than we HELP the family
BBQ yet we haven't eat anything . ._. About hmmm . 6.30 ?
we Cabbed down to Downtown East to let Ryan meet his friends
there , whereas for me , i cabbed down to East Coast Park
Area C . hmm . had a nice conversation with the Taxi Driver
he's a kind guy . (: my actual cab fare right , supposed to be
$22.70 because of the bloody Peak Hour . ._. but than he say
see , nevermind one xiao didi , i charge you only $20 okay ?
in case you not enough money . Steady bo ? Woah . he's such
a kind man . (: After getting off , he asked me , Eh boy ,
you have enough money mar ? i just nodded my head , saying
have . thanks ah uncle . (: than i closed the door and waved
goodbye to him . BAHHH . ;x I Bought Large Fries and grabbed
a Cup of ice and started walking to Pit 17 which is located
SO FAR away from where i was than . ._. okay... than when
i reached there , i saw Honey ! DADDY ! Siyu and Matthew (:

hahahahaha . had some fun cooking . oh ya. i forgot , there was
Clarence also . ;x hmmm . Kinda Fun day i suppose . Tried to BBQ
and i even made new friends leh (: name you some now .
Siyu meimei , Matthew , Clarence and Yo Chuan or something . o.o
okay. so hmmm . we slacked and BBQ and eat all these from 6+ to
12am like this . FUN sia . (: Cabbed home with daddy .

Next Planned Outing , 27 August , Thursday . Supposed to be watching
a movie , but i wouldn't know . it would change . ;x. BAHHH . had Fun
__________________________________________________________

22 August 2009, Sunday
__________________________________________________________

Firstly , shall Wish my grandma HAPPY BIRTHDAY (: hehe .
today ah . nothing special , just audi audi audi . complete
story here and there Now my x3CHEWY level 13 lerhs (: HAHA .
going level 14 . BAHHHHH 89.98% ;x

okay la . than hmm . at night , ate dinner outside to celebrate
grandma's birthday . (: lalalalalala . after dinner , went over
to grandma's place to cut cake . ;x hehehe . nothing usual today .
__________________________________________________________

23 August 2009 , Monday ( TODAY )
__________________________________________________________

Okay . i PON assembly today , ._. because i'm afraid my hair
would get caught again . than hmmm . so yea . slacked at toilet
with Melson , Luke and Lester . okay. than right , lessons as
usual , until Physics , telephone call that wants to find me ,
they CALLED my mother asking my mother where was i . ._. i just
made an excuse saying that i'm late. geez . okay . boring boring
boring lessons . Gahhhhhh . Bored .

There was Physics remedial from 1.15-2.15 . okay . released le right ,
Pang ann , Kin Hurng and Edwin pei me go hair saloon get myself a
haircut . (: haha . my new haircut sucks badly . D:
okay nevermind . ;x BAHHHHHH . that's all apparently . (:
AUDI AUDI AUDI . train BU liaos . (: Nights everyone .
That's all . (:
__________________________________________________________

Disrepute : Apparently , I'm Losing Faith In Love .




Friday, August 21, 2009

Heh . shall congrats myself firstly upon reaching 100 posts :D
so yea . i'm gonna tell ya guys what happened recently as
i'm kinda fucked up with my internet , kept giving me problems .
now i can't play audition T-T . my character level 11 leh . D:
going 12 le ! T-T okay la . hmmm . here goes
__________________________________________________________

19th August 2009 ( Wednesday )
__________________________________________________________

An ordinary school day as usual . no difference from any
typical days . hmmm . but , the nice thing is ,
After school right . i went my grandma's there to shower
first prepare to go Admiralty find TWINNIE ! <3 :D
hehehe ! so i ended school at 1.50pm than showered and
waited until about hmm... 2.30 ? than start walking to
MRT , omg i thought i would be late . because i reached
there at 3.30 . i was like WTF ? 15 minutes more .
quickly walked briskly to Crescent Park . LUCKY i'm
early . :X so waited at a shelter nearby ~ (:

Than than than , the princess in Beautiful uh... Beige
Uniform ? ya . she finally came ! (: happy happy .
Slacked with her and played bball there . tired . ;/
brought twinnie home along with her friends . (:

Than yea . went home and celebrated our "2nd Month"
on msn (: hehe . Congratulation to us on being on our
2nd Month Anniversary already . (:

Love You Valerie :D
__________________________________________________________

21 August 2009 ( Friday aka TODAY )
__________________________________________________________

Okay . Today ah . GOT stupid Maths test . FAIL LIAO LA .
never read instructions . T-T okay la . hmmm .
than right . AFTER SCHOOL . ;x

Went home and changed . PREPARED to go to Douby Ghaut find
Zhihui jiejie :D slacked slacked and walk walk around here
and there at Plaza Sing . nothing do leh . than we suddenly
go eat eat (: than hmm . played Arcade . jie watched my play .
thannnnn we went to OUTSIDE "PC Bunk" there sit and talk talk.
Heart 2 Heart talk uh .

SO yea . 6.30 just came so quickly . jie went home and i went
Bugis find Kenneth , Weiyao , Eugene and his friend . o.o .
Was slacking at Virtual LAN . don't know do what . than
WY and Eugene went home early . left me and di . so we talked
about stuffs . here and there . i then went over to East Coast
find Charles , Claire and GS .

Reached THEIR place only at 8+ . GAVE ME WRONG DIRECTION SIA THEY.
tell me hawker near mac . wtf i went east coast de mac. they tell me
is at Parkway the mac . SCREWWWWWWWW ITTTTTT . D: okay la
went Arcade enjoy and relief ourselves . ;x than went SWENSENS (:
Ate my Sticky Chewy Chocolate ! :D SO NICE (:

But right , twist is , Claire's mom treated us . VERY PAISEH leh. D:
okay la . than we discussed about the Class Tee . FAILURE . D:
Claire went home with their parents , than right , we actually
planned to walk to paya lehbar . BUT THAN HOR . all became lazy .
TOOK bus to Aljunied MRT instead . geez . i walked gs home than me leh.
WALKED HOME ALONE . gahhh . bu jian de people walk me home . ._.

okay la . had a nice day today . though i'm still feeling a little... Emo...
Bahhhh . that's all folks ....
__________________________________________________________

Disrepute : Memories That Haunts Me .




Thursday, August 20, 2009

HEHEHE . firstly . i want to congrats me and Valerie upon
reaching our special day . :D

2nd Month Anniversary le wor ! (:

hehe . ;x Indeed . Valerie is my affection . That's a fact
that wouldn't change so easily . hmmm . anyways , twinnie ,
don't get demoralised with your marks , work harder instead .
okay ? jiayious !

i hope you'll like the note i've drawn to you . x) .

hmmm . another thing , recently cleared the misunderstanding
and reconciled with charles brother . LOL . :D
lalalalala. ;x

My Affection , My Life .

Last Few Words :

Valerie Leo Hui Shi , I Love You . (:
__________________________________________________________

Disrepute : The Days Are Numbered . Time To Take Action




Monday, August 17, 2009

Before...

__________________________________________________________

15th August 2009
__________________________________________________________

Hmm . today ah . went DG at around hmm . 2pm ? queued up
and buy 2 tickets to "Where Got Ghost" the latest Jack Neo's
film . yea . and that ticket was for YeeHong meinu . SAD lor .
actually got people come with us . last minute clogged up
something . than we two alone . ._. okay nvm . classmate
classmate . ;x okay . hmmm . so i waited at DG until mad . ._.
than kenneth di told me they're at DG so they came and find me
LOL . the group of Kenneth and his girlfriend ( don't know name )
and uh . JJ , WY and Eugene . okay . lol . they said that day
was guild outing . that's why they're at DG . than okay...
Yee hong reached soon after that . walked about and bought
popcorns and drinks to the movie . went inside liao right .
stupid 15 mins of Advertisement . SO LONG . should have entered
slightly later . D: ... okay nevermind . lol . than
hmmm . here's my review on Where Got Ghost :

Okay . Typical show with Comedy inside , as expected from all
Jack Neo's film . this time . there's only some Scary moments
in the movie . This show , is split into 3 parts . Can't
remember what they are though . i just remembered the 2nd and 3rd
one . They're , Ghost In Forest and Ghost At Home .

so yea . it describes about things we do that can affect the "ghosts"
or in other words , supernatural beings . and blah blah blah .
the 1st part of the movie isn't scary at all . whereas the 2nd and 3rd
part , there's only SOME parts that are scary . you'll see when you
watch the movie . (: overall . i find this movie okay okay .
IF it hadn't for the dialect jokes , the show would have sucked badly .
that's my point of view . ;x

so yea . after the movie . as always . 1st thing to do , GO TOILET .
LOL . urgent mar . what to do . okay okay . so hmmm . nothing else
i slacked with yee hong at plaza singapura until 9+ ? walked about
here and there . ate dinner and so on . talked about things . get to
know each other more . :D . okay la . than i went to Couple lab ,
asked her for some advise on what to buy for my twinnie <3 . but uh
(i hope twinnie's not looking at this)
so yea . went to the MRT station and MRT-ed back to aljunied .
walked home from the MRT station . ._. found out that she just lived
opposite of me . LOL . okay... lol . YeeHong and me are FRIENDS now .
(: .
__________________________________________________________

Aftermath
.....
__________________________________________________________

17th August 2009
__________________________________________________________

Yea... 1 day have passed .

Shall elaborate on it a little . hmm .
__________________________________________________________

So i'm going school , early i suppose . sat at assembly .
did nothing else . read book , go through devotion . blah blah.
Followed by going back to class . nothing to do . first two periods
maths , bored like fuck . can't listen properly because i'm very
troubled inside me . who cares anyways . so after Maths , it's
physics . relief teacher came in as our teacher is on leave .
hmmm . than just sat on my seat and waited for time to pass quickly .
Nothing else i suppose . followed after that lesson was Recess ,
which i stayed in class . but halfway . Mr Gauge so extra come catch
us . than me and Joleen went to 3rd floor and ran up back to 4th floor .

hmmm . followed after that was chemistry 1 period . boring as usual.
than it was Chinese , did some corrections and hmm . is was another
2 periods of maths , did some exercise here and there , blah blah .
than we've got this notice saying that we're been released early at
1.15 because our english teachers are on examinations duty . so hmm .
after the two period of maths , was one period of english due to the
duty . and yea . gone through comprehension corrections and blah blah .

Last school bell rang , walked home alone apparently . reached home and
slept as internet was down . hmmm . around 3.40pm like this ,
woke up and played Audition as internet was back . now my character ,
x3CHEWY . is level 10 . so yea . hmmm . and now , want facebook also can't.
stupid facebook alignment went crazy . so yea . hais . M.I.A from FB bah.

okay . that's about it i suppose .

The one thing i once had most were Friends.
but now , that's the one thing i lack . Sometimes i ponder upon this ,
Am i born to lose my friends whom i gained ? even so . Friends to me ,
have lost their values . They're like strangers to me already....
why bother . It might be false to many people . but to people like me ,
They're just the truth , the BITTER truth . What to do , Friends...
heh . i can just go on talking about this , but what's the point...
why cry over spilled milk ? I shall continue life , even if i've not
much friends left . it DOESN'T matter... soon they'll see who's the
REAL friends they seek all these while . soon.... Revenge Shall Fall on
those who detests me . that's what i think , and lastly , Something i
must say upon everything . Sorry , Charles . for making you misunderstand
me trying to snatch your girlfriend . Guess it wasn't really a funny
joke afterall . Jokes of mine can even lead people to Misunderstandings .
Whatever i'll be doing . it'll just lead to more people getting
misunderstanding me and my actions . i don't mean anything though Charles .
I guess , there's no point for me to continue because you might not even
be looking at this . but i just want this from you guys . My Isolation...

__________________________________________________________

1 day of isolation . How many more days is there left .
__________________________________________________________

Disrepute : Misunderstandings Can Cause A Life .




Friday, August 14, 2009

To An Extent Where Misunderstandings Causes Conflict .
my only solution is this .

I'll apologise , in return , i want to be neglected .
Either way , i shall Isolate myself .

To hurt people unknowingly . That is something that
hurt a lot . it's a sad thing though , i fall into
these category .

Enemies Came About From Friends . Sadly That's The
Truth . But Yea . Afterall , I'm The Pain Of
Everyone . I'm Everyone's Jinx , Making People's
Life Miserable , Getting Angry , Sad , Etc .

What I'm Trying To Say Is , I Don't Want Anyone
To Care About Me Anymore . For I'm Just That
Burden Of Everyone . I'm Isolating Myself
Everywhere I Go .

isn't that what you wished for ?

The Love That Failed Which Led To
Our Current Situation . Regretful Memories But
Yet , It's Pointless To Sulk About It . For It
Has Already Happened . Who Actually Cares And
Understands My Feelings . I Doubt You Do Anymore.
And Last Thing , Nothing Comes Out Of My Mouth Is Good At All .
Since The Beginning , It's Been Bad . Afterall , I'm Going To
Isolate Myself , Leave Me Alone . Because I Don't Deserve
Any Friends Neither Anyone At All .

__________________________________________________________

Disrepute : I'm Meant To Be Alone .




Thursday, August 13, 2009

I Shall Update Myself . and you guys obviously .
hmmm . okay . so uh . the MOST latest thing was on National Day.
__________________________________________________________

9th August 2009
__________________________________________________________

Firstly , i shall congratulate Singapore on it's 44th Birthday !
Being a Singaporean is kinda fun . ;x that's my point of view duh.

okay . secondly . Happy Birthday TO GekLuo jie . ;x
and i shall congratulate Ruyan's Aunt or whoever whom gave birth to
a national day child . ^^ .

okay . hmm . i was at home all the way until about hmm... 5.30pm ?
than i made my way to Kallang meet charles along with Guo sheng. lol .
Rofl . then uh . we went around City Hall . but found out it'll be a
VERY LONG walk to Marina Bay . so uh... we went to Marina Bay through
MRT instead . hmmm . met up with Sabrina they all . LOL . Allam was
VERY handsome . ;x okay . so hmm . went around Marina Bay , got
separated and met with this group of people . ( whom i don't wish
to say out ) went to eat at nearby hawker . hmm . than charles , me
and guosheng went to ruyan's house slack a while then after a moment,
mrt down to lavender find Clarie , than we went East Coast by cab.
Went to LIGHTHOUSE . ;x and uh . the beach , nothing to do uh . than
slack at Carls Junior . sianed . ._. went home after that . reached
home about hmm... 12.06am if i'm not wrong ? so yea .

__________________________________________________________

okay . so there's nothing else really . hmmm . shall post some pictures.



Random Hand writings ;x



Me and Gilbert ;x



Me and Co . ;x



Bahhh . Charles and me . ;D



MEmememe . ;x
__________________________________________________________

P.S. Met some new friends on Facebook ! i shall name some .

Rachel - Mapler . o.o
Crystal - Ex-schoolmate
Huishi - Schoolmate
HaiShan - venus's Friend . o.o

Last Thing .

Valerie , I Love You
__________________________________________________________

Disrepute : Shattered Memories




Sunday, August 9, 2009

Firstly , I shall Wish Singapore a
Happy 44th Birthday! alrights . i've only
been through 15 birthdays of Singapore .
but still , yea ! and another addition .
Happy Advanced Birthday to Chocolate
AND ,
Happy Birthday to GekLuo jie ! ;D

Okay . i'll post some random pictures now
yea . okay.. not really random , they're just
pictures that are taken these few days. ;x

HOPE YA GUYS ENJOY .

P.S. Sadly , my blogger got some problems , i can't
see any tabs at all . ._. so no pictures for now yea ? sorry . ;x




Friday, August 7, 2009

Okay . hmmm . it's been 3 days since i've posted
something on my blog . so yea . uhh....
__________________________________________________________

3rd August 2009 .
__________________________________________________________

Got back my Chemistry Common test result . WTF i got 22/26 .
so shocked okay . but then , when going through answers , i
found one mistake , i tell teacher leh . WTF MINUS ONE MARK . T-T
now become 21 marks . SCREWWWW THAT . D:
Then uh... after that , just went home , sleep and stuffs ,
nothing special really .
__________________________________________________________

4th August 2009
__________________________________________________________

Today ahhh . Physics test during first two periods . WTFFFF .
then then , uh... i can't remember , what i remember is ,
after a while , i just had this english test , THE COMPREHENSION
IS SO SOPHISICATED . i also don't understand what's it talking
about . sian-ed . so yea. hmmmm......... BORED . stayed back in
school for POA REMDIAL . which isn't really counted as one lor .
it's something like studying or something . ._.
Went home and sleep and stuffs . SAME AS WEDNESDAY .
Emo-ed .
__________________________________________________________

5th August 2009 .
__________________________________________________________

Today ah . National day celebration in my school lor .
just singing here and there , playing around . o.o
took some photos with my friends here and there , than
after the whole thing ended liao , i went to charles's place
to slack and stuff , uh , Adeon , Jackey , Jian ming and
Guo sheng came along too . there was a lot of fun here and
there yea . but still . isn't satisfying . hais ....
oh yea , watched G.I Joe , DO NOT WATCH PLEASE , it's a sucky
show . ._.

Now , i'm alone with charles at his house yea . his sister
keep call me da kor kor . wtf . ._. lol .

Still at charles's house , LATER will be back .

Okay . so i'm back home now , want to post some pictures
also can't . stupid blogger got problem . ._. WILL POST SOON.
__________________________________________________________

Disrepute : Mistakes Never Forgotten .




Tuesday, August 4, 2009

It seemed as though , everyone around me , somehow or another,
would get hurt by me , if my life is fated to hurt people ,
i'll end it immediately . To the extent of even hurting my
Girlfriend unknowingly . i seriously think my life , my
screwed up life , isn't as bright as people sees . It's all just
PLAIN MISERY . I'm Emotional , no one can change that fact .

Maybe , just maybe , all i do in emotional state is just seeking
attention which i don't usually get . Maybe... i shall just
Perish from the surface of this earth . There's nothing i can do ,
which i can repent from my mistakes .

This is my life , and i hate it a lot , i guess all those that hate
me LOVE to see the state i'm in now right ? i suppose you guys are
jumping for joy huh . Be it you're happy or backstabbing me , Just
to let you know , I think that you guys should just do the same thing
to yourself or otherwise .

I'm not blind nor deaf , Lame nor Impaired . all these things that's
happening to me , i know i can't compare to those people who are really
having physical problems , but still . You guys , ain't friends at all
in my eyes . Now i'm not referring to anyone . so don't come tagging at
my board saying i'm saying you , you want assume that i'm saying you ,
go ahead , i've nothing to say .

I'm done for , Anyone cared ? even if there was , they have their own
life too , there's no confirmation about them being "THERE" for me .
and all i needed was you.... which i've made you lost almost everything...

There's no point apologising now because it's too late , afterall ,
i'm really to be blamed . I'm just being a Vehement person . but....
i guess i'm just doing it wrongly . I'm sorry...
__________________________________________________________


Few words to certain people :
__________________________________________________________

Ryan : hey , you're a good friend i've made since my primary school days .
hope you'll get what you really desire and remember , stay happy.

Joleen : It's already the end , What's the point even if i don't think so
much , in the end , it had already happened . it's pointless....
Your lectures ain't helping me at all . because i'm not even
listening to them... i'm just too stubborn for anything .

ShaoMin : Honey , sorry to have troubled you...

ZhiHui : Jie , thanks for lecturing me too , but also , i can't really get
the main points into my mind because i'm WAY too stubborn . still ,
Thanks a lot . Jiayious in your project uh .

Twinnie. : I'm really sorry ... i just don't understand why do i always end
up hurting you unknowingly... i know i'm stubborn , i always add
oil into fire , i'm always wrong.... i know.... but the very
ironic thing is , i'm not doing shit about it . I'm still
letting these habits getting to me , being emotional about stuffs.
Blaming myself , but logically thinking , i know i'm just thinking
too much , there's nothing i can do anymore . I'm Done For .
__________________________________________________________

Disrepute : A Vehement Existence .




Sunday, August 2, 2009

Okay . This is my latest update on everything i've done .
Let's start on Last friday . hmmm...

31st July 2009 .
__________________________________________________________

School is still as bored as ever , and to add onto the
boredom , there's A-Maths test today . wtf . never studied
as usual . confirm fail la . lol . okay . hmmmm . then
when school ended right , my brother charles and the
Alson got tai ji . blah blah blah . not gonna elaborate
this thing further . okay . so the tai ji "settled" and
everyone go home and blah blah blah . i just rotted at
home staring at my computer and play L4D . but this time ,
Twinnie introduced me to play Restaurant City on Facebook .
lol . currently lvl 11 now . but still kinda bored of the
game . alrights . so i'll end 31st July's post .
__________________________________________________________

1st August 2009
__________________________________________________________

Hmmm . let's start this by saying today my mom bringing me
to buy my clothes which i lack of . ;D okay... so i bought
quite a lot . ( in my view ) There's 2 bermudas , 2 printed
tees and one Long sleeve Billabong shirt which i don't really
like . ._.

Okay . so i went to Bugis , buy all of the above , but .
actually wanted to buy a long sleeve shirt which is not Billabong
which i'm still doing , I went to Messy take a look , there's
one that i really liked , but fuck , no stock . ._. than
went peninsula or whatever you spell that , find a long sleeve
shirt for myself , saw another one i like , but OMG again ,
no stock . fucked up . ._.

It's so SAD duh . can't get what i want . ._. okay la . hmmm .
after that , went bugis again , this time i'm alone , i played
Blazblue and got thrashed by this nerd looking guy . ._. but
he's SO PRO LEh . don't know how let noob pwn him . ZZZZZZ .

and so i went home , played l4d and restaurant city again . lol.
__________________________________________________________

2nd August 2009
__________________________________________________________

Okay. firstly , my apologies to Lin DaJie , if i'm not wrong ,
today is the day you want me celebrate your birthday . ._.
but you never told me what time , and i'm not confirmed whether
is it today , sorry . >,< . Happy Birthday anyways .

so okay . today , i followed my parents to Toa Payoh (failed spelling)
than go to this PSP game stall and all , my father's friend stall.
to fix his computer and whatever . andd..... i got myself a new
PSP case along with a Battery . ^^ WEEEE . longer hours to psping . ^^
so yea . uh ... after everything , went home l4d once again ,

Getting fucking sick of my life , always l4d l4d . okay la . then .
around 7+ , honey called me , ask can go grandlink a not , i just go
lor. because keep l4ding also sian . hmmm . then i reached City Plaza
at 8.45 or something . pei-ed honey slacked and talked until 10.30.
we played pool at grandlink ^^ . so yea . enjoyed a little .
then , reached home at 11+ . L4D with Green and pain all the way until
4am . lol . okay... so that's all i guess . oh wait . still got today.
__________________________________________________________

3rd August 2009
__________________________________________________________

Nothing really happened today , was suppose to find my long sleeve
shirt once again . but i OVERSLEPT . wtf . then just on computer afk
SLEEP again . keep sleeping until 5pm + . ._. and now it's 6.30 . i
going my grandma's to eat my dinner . so yea . hope you guys out there
from G.M.S.S enjoy today's ONLY holiday . ._. That's all FINALLY . lol .
__________________________________________________________

Pictures xD



What i bought . ^^



What i wore that day . too casual . ._.



After all these years , FINALLY , Double-Fillet-O-FISH . xD



Uhh . The vodka me and minmin drank . ^^

__________________________________________________________

Disrepute : I'm Always At Fault Afterall , Why Bother?




The mister
Photobucket
Damien Ang Heng Lee
Horrendous 16
01-04-1994~ His Big Day
Single/Attached
Currently Studying In G.M.S(S)
Married To Baby Wenxin
Hers Since 09/06/10 18:00



The Wishes
The Happiness Of Everyone .





Screams And Cries





Credits

Shirleen
Jialing