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23th April 2011 ( Saturday )
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Well ,
as all of you know ,
i'm Single ,
My life's in a great mess and turmoil ,
i dread about the future now ,
and whenever i look back into the past ,
the pictures that we've taken together ,
those chat logs ,
i really missed them ,
you're ignoring me now ,
there's bound to be a purpose ,
but be it good or bad ,
i don't wish to know but ,
i just want the best for you ,
Over the past 10 months ,
we've indeed changed a lot as a couple ,
think about it ,
beginning we're so sweet with one another ,
so loving ,
everything seemed to be fine ,
the most lovable couple there is ,
but now ,
it's all gone ,
we're just one step to be back at square one ,
whereby we're both ,
Strangers .
Please don't leave me ,
i don't wish for you to ,
i'm typing this at 2:05am ,
hoping that you'll get a chance to even stumble upon this ,
but well ,
you'll probably be hating me when you get to see this ,
i don't know but well ,
Things would be better for you i suppose ,
without me by your side no longer ,
there's bound to be another guy that's better than me ,
that treats you better ,
that treasure you ,
that put you as his priority .
I know i've been hurting you ever since God knows when ,
but i don't mean it ,
everything that i'm saying doesn't mean a thing now i suppose ,
after all ,
What's done is already done ,
it can no longer be undone ,
I doubt i'll make it through the mid-year examination ,
which is next week ,
i've yet to study ,
feeling so hopeless over you ,
feeling so terrible ,
filled with misery ,
but well ,
it doesn't matter i suppose ,
when you get to see this ,
you would've moved on ,
you would've lost everything you once had towards me ,
And i ,
would be missing your presence ,
your every actions and memories ,
I hate to say this ,
but my life's hell without you ,
i never really realized it ,
but as times go by ,
we seem to have neglected one another ,
oh wait  ,
it's just me ,
i seemed to have not noticed ,
what's the actual reason why we're together ,
never really cherished you ,
that's a fact ,
until you're gone ,
that's when i realized that ,
All these fucking times ,
i've yet treasured you ,
it's a little too late huh ?
How stupid of me to realize it only when you're gone ,
but well ,
nothing can be done right now ,
nothing can be undone either ,
We're gone ,
10 months ,
though it's short to me ,
but the length of the relationship doesn't matter ,
what matters .....
is the process of the relationship ,
and i hope you would still carry those memories you have of me ,
with you till this day and age ,
hoping that when you'll reminiscent about me over certain stuffs ,
hoping that you'll still put me as someone that has once changed you ,
someone that has once made you happy ,
granted you with everything you wanted ,
and i hereby wish you ,
for a better future ,
you'll find someone better ,
that i'm certain of ,
because you deserve someone much better than the this pathetic ass ,
oh well ,
enough said .
I'm Gone .

兴利 ♥ 文欣 09-06-10
Parents Of Miyuki and Miracle .
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Disrepute : Remnants Filled With Our Past .  ♥