41st Post now , hmm .
Let's just say , i'm really a hypocrite.
but , reason being why i said all these ,
is because i don't know how to face you anymore .
you said let bygones be bygones .
i can't . there's still this tiny little voice .
inside of me , saying...
" You Don't Even Have The Face To Face Her "
" Just Let Her Be Who She Wants To Be "
" You're Not A Good Person "
" No One Wants You , At all... "

these are JUST some sentences that kept ,
popping out in my mind . why , i don't know either .
maybe it's fate that i'm suppose to go through all these.

i'm not trying to get anyone's sympathy cause
i don't think i'm even worthy enough to get
sympathised . It's Pathetic huh ?

Some Hypocrite boy . trying to change the world
into a better world . what big dreams he has .
what an idiot ...

And yet i saw you today , i looked away and
pretended that i never saw you because
i really have no face to even look at you
anymore .

It's Not My Style To Let Go Something So Easily .
you should know barh . i'm far too useless
anyways . i dragged you down in some kind of matters .
i made you hard to even lift your head high
when you're with me ,

That just proves how useless i am . what to do .
i'm born useless , you can't change that fact ,
i can't too . lala .

You may think that i'm just trying to be your friend
when i don't want to , you're totally wrong .
whatever i do , i always somehow drag you down .
i'm fated , to go all the way down with those
that are close to me .

YES i admit i'm a hypocrite ,
but you're wrong about being friends with you .

heh . Let bygones be bygones huh .
why can't i just say that to myself .
just let me life end , let bygones be bygones .
isn't that better ? :D for both you and me .