hais . read all you guy's comments also sian 1/2 . so ,
i'm telling you why i'm doing all this , because i sick and
tired of playing mind games now .

Firstly , to ken , i don't really mean to insult you for no
reason or anything , but it's because i don't think lini's secure
with you around because you don't look those kind of "protective"
no offence , hmm . so i insulted you to see what you can do to me .
because this world , it's all about who's behind you and stuffs .
and somemore , lini still have grudges with "some" of my friends .
so i don't want anything to happen to her so this is sort of a "test" .
I don't really mean what i said , but still , i'm sorry ya ? .

Secondly , To everyone and lini .

Maybe you guess i'm childish by doing all these nonsense to her and
asking , why can't we just be friends ? wouldn't that be easy ?
my answer is a straight no .
Reason being , I don't want to hurt her anymore , you guys may
think this is just some excuse i've made up , but seriously i don't care .
it's for THAT reason i go to all these troubles .
During the times when we together , you always cried , always angry about
something , regardless of what or who . you never seemed happy .
As your stead last time , you know how i feel a not ? i feel fucking useless.
And now , we're not stead anymore . I don't know how to face you ,
and still you seem sad , but until that day guild outing you brought ken
along , my heart was totally filled with jealousy . i gave him that diao face.
i really don't know how to face you then , just ignored you all the way .
ended up quarrelling with you on the blog . but still , all these ,
are just planned out by me , i don't know how you found out about my plan ,
but i just wanted you to be happy now .

YES i still care for you , i might be dumb or an idiot . BY STILL ,
you're my ex afterall . i want someone else to take good care of you .
Being friends or not , that doesn't matter to me at all. it's your happiness
that's important . so i wanted you to get angry over me and gradually hate me
for my attitude towards you , but you're just going the opposite as i planned .
I've Given up on this plan already .
you asked me for patch twice , i rejected all of them . because i want you to
just leave me alone . I'm alone anyways ? can't you just let go of me and
those memories we had ? i just want you to move on . that's all .

I can't say that i don't care about you , but seeing the state you have ended
up in , i feel so useless because i cannot even do a single shit to stop you
in those bad things you're doing , i regretted . Utterly Disappointed in myself.
Useless huh ? i think so bah .

Another thing to everyone , I DO NOT HAVE ANY BACKUP , NEITHER AM I IN A GANG .
i'm just simply ALONE . got that ? i do things alone now . alrights ? o.o

But still , i can't stop you guys if you guys don't really like my attitude .
just tell me about my attitude bah . thank you very much .
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13/06/09 , Saturday , 10.34 pm .

hmm . today just merely played a little Atlantica online and slept . ._.
than , around 4pm than start preparing go Woodlands find twinnie . o.o
wtf wtf wtf i late for 20 mins . heng heng . xD than met up
with twinnie and her bestie alan or allan . o.o (5.00pm)
hmm . we walked around causeway point and was BORED like wtf .
so me and twinnie sat down along with her bestie somewhere where there's
chair , played FF - Dissidia with her . omg i pwned her big time . ;p

LOLOLOL . than than , we went arcade after that because i pity her bestie ,
just sit there and stare at his handphone , can see it's quite boring for
him , than uh . at the arcade . i wasted like $6 if i'm not wrong .
played Basketball , Punching Machine and uh... DDR and the newer DDR .
gosh . poke eye liao . after that , went to Mini Toons buy sweets for my
teeth . ;D .

hmmm . ended up walking about like idiots talking jokes and stuffs while
walking . a while laterrrr . went burger king and meet my Primary 1
classmate Jeslyn , omg it's been uh ... 8 years that we've not met ?
lalala . recreation time . talk about the past and stuffs . than we
walk around , walk into shops , joke about here and there . than tired ,
we went to 6th floor and slack . slack slack slack . played True and Dare
but than dropped the idea because not fun , hmmm . we talked about dancing
and stuff , learning learning , than than , we take lift and went each our
ways because we're all tired and stuffs , i brought jeslyn home and than
went home myself , ALONE . ._. okay . so i'm home now . nothing to do . xD
Posting pictures ;D

lalala
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Picture Time . ;D


Milk Family . ;D Nui Nui ;p


OMG , who's this ? O.O


DDR siol . ( Dance Dance Revolution )


Hey, that's me playing DDR ? O.O


O.O . i know i'm noob in basketball . D:


OMG la . SO LITTLE BIT MORE TILL high score . D:
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That's all Folks . ;p

Disrepute : I've Finally Given Up Already . I've Lost , This Useless Fool.