It seemed as though , everyone around me , somehow or another,
would get hurt by me , if my life is fated to hurt people ,
i'll end it immediately . To the extent of even hurting my
Girlfriend unknowingly . i seriously think my life , my
screwed up life , isn't as bright as people sees . It's all just
PLAIN MISERY . I'm Emotional , no one can change that fact .

Maybe , just maybe , all i do in emotional state is just seeking
attention which i don't usually get . Maybe... i shall just
Perish from the surface of this earth . There's nothing i can do ,
which i can repent from my mistakes .

This is my life , and i hate it a lot , i guess all those that hate
me LOVE to see the state i'm in now right ? i suppose you guys are
jumping for joy huh . Be it you're happy or backstabbing me , Just
to let you know , I think that you guys should just do the same thing
to yourself or otherwise .

I'm not blind nor deaf , Lame nor Impaired . all these things that's
happening to me , i know i can't compare to those people who are really
having physical problems , but still . You guys , ain't friends at all
in my eyes . Now i'm not referring to anyone . so don't come tagging at
my board saying i'm saying you , you want assume that i'm saying you ,
go ahead , i've nothing to say .

I'm done for , Anyone cared ? even if there was , they have their own
life too , there's no confirmation about them being "THERE" for me .
and all i needed was you.... which i've made you lost almost everything...

There's no point apologising now because it's too late , afterall ,
i'm really to be blamed . I'm just being a Vehement person . but....
i guess i'm just doing it wrongly . I'm sorry...
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Few words to certain people :
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Ryan : hey , you're a good friend i've made since my primary school days .
hope you'll get what you really desire and remember , stay happy.

Joleen : It's already the end , What's the point even if i don't think so
much , in the end , it had already happened . it's pointless....
Your lectures ain't helping me at all . because i'm not even
listening to them... i'm just too stubborn for anything .

ShaoMin : Honey , sorry to have troubled you...

ZhiHui : Jie , thanks for lecturing me too , but also , i can't really get
the main points into my mind because i'm WAY too stubborn . still ,
Thanks a lot . Jiayious in your project uh .

Twinnie. : I'm really sorry ... i just don't understand why do i always end
up hurting you unknowingly... i know i'm stubborn , i always add
oil into fire , i'm always wrong.... i know.... but the very
ironic thing is , i'm not doing shit about it . I'm still
letting these habits getting to me , being emotional about stuffs.
Blaming myself , but logically thinking , i know i'm just thinking
too much , there's nothing i can do anymore . I'm Done For .
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Disrepute : A Vehement Existence .