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The Misery .
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Last Picture ,
my broken fist ,
those two plasters ,
covered the parts where it bleed ,
those blood that i shed ,
it's all for you .
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The Arrival Of Misery .
Depression Day .
On The 3rd Of Every Month ,
The Beginning Of My Misery and Despair .
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3rd March 2010 ( Wednesday )
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felt okay for the beginning of the day ,
was late though ,
at least there's 3 other people to accompany me to get late ,
didn't get caught for hair check .
awesome .
well ,
beginning of the day ,
not so bad i suppose .
but only during recess ,
everything starts to get wrong ,
emo-ed in the class of faith 3-4 ,
was resisting my temptation to punch walls ,
in the end still ended up punching it ,
oh well ,
i saw my blood stains all over the wall ,
i want to cry out my pains .
but it seemed impossible ,
hais ,
i did all these for you ,
do you even know ?
i doubt you do ,
oh well ,
it doesn't matter though ,
cause you've moved on already ,
i'm left behind ,
hais ,
lunch time soon ,
ate a little and went back class ,
started punching the whiteboard .
blood stains are everywhere also ,
geez ,
it doesn't matter anymore now ,
my fist has torn apart ,
this physical pain can't replace the pain inside of me ,
i really want to cry them out ,
sadly my tears are gone ,
gone....
how ironic ,
hais .
5.05 PM now ,
it's still a long way till the end of today ,
hope you're enjoying today instead of being ,
not so in the mood ,
heh ,
my fist cried for your name ,
for your tender love once again ,
i guess it's penknife playing time , (:

6 hours and 54 minutes more .
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Disrepute : The Times We Were Once Happy , Together .