so yea ... hmm . kinda emo-ish these few days as i still can't get rid of
certain things in my mind . so okay..

Seriously though . after being through so many things , i've felt that
i'm worth to deserve certain things . hais . what i can remember is , my
mind is just so.... confused and all . and i just remembered that during the
last 3 days , i'm always emo-ing . seeking for someone to console me . so yea.

Thanks valerie twinnie , shaomin honey , zhihui jie in helping to console me
when i needed you guys . heh . what shall i do without you people .
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Anyways . here's what's in my mind that's bothering me currently .

1. I don't really like school now because i'm almost off alone .
2. Always being neglected by groups and all .
3. absurd assholes that want to find me problem .
4. want find some people problems because they are bastards .
5. Worried about something .
6. The days left to my death .
7. wishes i'm not always... alone everywhere i go .
8. Why can't people understand what am i going through .
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I'm in my deepest moments already , the only thing i need now is... Love.
Where are those people that i once knew ... are they lost ? i can no longer
talk to anyone now... i'm just alone . always . and i seriously mean it now .
This world is indeed unfair by means . but it's so difficult to live in a place
where people just neglects your existence... i hate myself for my mistakes .
i guess this is my retribution , so i'll accept it willingly .

To those who hates me , i hope you're VERY happy now , please curse me until
i die . that would be very great . Just TRY to give your best shot . Kill me .
I'm prepared to die already . Just Give Me All You Got .

The Past that i couldn't redeem myself from , it's unforgivable . so i guess
i'll just forget about my future and just cling onto my past . which just
hurts me so much to do that . Now , never , ever , come to me and seek for help.
because i ain't gonna help . I've had enough . i don't like being used ....
I Hate This World..... And , i'm not trying to seek attention or anything.
so , Fuck off if you think i am . don't like me ? just find me .
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Disrepute : The End Of My Story Spells The End For Me .