I Want You Back .
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18th April 2010 ( Sunday )
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I know you've gone back there ,
well ,
you've finally got back what you yearn for ,
for the past 2 months ,
at least ,
you're contented with something and someone ,
Today was a total bore .
i just stayed at home ,
the whole fucking day ,
it's one of the days i wouldn't love to enjoy ,
financially unstable .
friendship unstable ,
everything just seem to go wrong at this moment ,
nothing seemed right ,
oh well ,
i don't know what should i do now ,
If there's a God out there ,
please tell me ,
what am i suppose to do ,
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19th April 2010 ( Monday )
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2.48 AM at the moment and i'm wide awake .
here's a birthday wish for my baby ,

Happy 15th Birthday to Chong Jie Min ~

i hope you'll enjoy today ,
sadly ,
i'm unable to celebrate with you ,
i'm sorry ,
had to go on avoiding everyone... ):
but i bet you wouldn't even notice that i'm ,
gone ,
right ?
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Final Words
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Shirley Darling ,

Darling ,
why are you apologizing to me ,
you've not done anything wrong ,
right now ,
do what's right ,
get back your friends ,
don't be like me ,
making your friends into enemies ,
that's what i'm doing you know ,
i really hate myself . ):
hope you understand what i mean .

Yinyin dear ,

dear !
please help me ,
you might be the only person ,
that seriously can help me on my problems now ,
i'm very vexed ,
i feel terrible ,
i feel horrendous ,
this is my turning point ,
it's either i fall all the way down ,
or i regain back my senses ,
help me . ):

Celeste Sexy ,

hey sexy ,
don't give up waiting ,
he'll realize it soon ,
i know it ,
i'll always be there for ya ! :D
cheer up .

Joey close friend ,

eh eh ,
don't always emo emo ,
well ,
it's quite pointless to slit yourself ,
and i'm very serious ,
even if you don't promise me to not hurt yourself ,
promise yourself ,
hurting yourself is pointless ,
it doesn't relief the emotional pains you have ,
it only worsens it ,
hope you understand ,
and don't always ,
so sad ,
i'm just a call away ~
remember ! :D

to certain someone ,

well ,
after you've left me ,
i felt horrendous ,
i've never felt so ,
heartbroken ,
until my breakup with her ,
but why ,
i want to know why ,
ain't we going on fine ?
on second thoughts ,
maybe i'm not good enough for you ,
i apologize ,
for my imperfection to not be able to suit you .
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Disrepute : The Unforgettable Pain .